Weekend Musings: To My International Readers…

Hi oatmeal lovers. I’m going to go completely off-topic for a moment.

Tuesday was one of the worst days of my life. In terms of the devastation I feel, the neverending sickness in my stomach, and the deep sadness I feel for my country, this week brings back strong, painful memories of the September 11 attacks. It did not directly end people’s lives, but it did indirectly end some lives, and directly threaten the humanity of entire communities.

As an American with a large international base, I want you to know that that man does not represent me. He does not represent most Americans.*

*Hillary actually won more votes than him. (Thank you, Electoral College.)

On Wednesday morning, I woke up to a world in which a bigot was the presidential elect of the “United” States of America. I made my oatmeal. It brought me no peace. It tasted like nothing. I continued my day, forcing myself to “show up” to my job, to appointments, to meetings, to tutorials. Show up. Put on some sort of mask. Stifle my mourning. Try to show a brave and hopeful face to my young students.

But the second I left anyone’s gaze, I dissolved into tears–fearing for the humanity of my friends, coworkers, classmates, professors, students, and neighbors who happen to be Muslim, Black, Hispanic, gay, trans, or female. My country is broken and I’m hurt, scared, and numb. I feel physically ill. I know other countries are facing bigger problems but that does not diminish the devastation we are experiencing here.

In other words, I need to take a short break from the blog. It might be a week, or it might be several weeks. I’ll be back as soon as I have the emotional energy to be creative again.

xoxo

About Lauren Smith

Lauren is a herbivore, Slytherin, and connoisseur of oats. She is a former teacher who is currently studying to earn a master's degree in curriculum development. You can follow her on Instagram, Twitter, Pinterest, and Facebook.

17 Responses to Weekend Musings: To My International Readers…

  1. KerryAnn Laufer says:

    Good on you for taking care of yourself Lauren. For LOTS of us, this has been an emotionally draining time brought on by major disappointments~~I’m right there with you. Thank you for letting readers outside the US know that most Americans abhor what has just happened here. We are stunned & need time to grieve. <3

  2. Christine says:

    Thank you for letting your readers know. I was stunned by the results too. I’m trying not to be fatalistic about it, though. We live in a democracy and have checks and balances in place. I also hope that whatever skills made our President-elect a successful businessman will carry over into him being President.

    If you don’t feel up to making new recipes, I completely understand. However, I do have a few of my own recipes that I wouldn’t mind sharing with your readers. Let me know if you’re interested. In the meantime, please take care of yourself and be well.

  3. Inge says:

    I can totally understand your decision. Even I felt dazed for the whole of Wednesday and Thursday, and I don’t even live in America. I’m very scared for all US minorities, world politics and the climate. I don’t know enough about your political system to really see how much power he has, but I really hope there will be some counterbalance at least.
    Take your time to find peace again, you’ve created enough recipes already to last us a few weeks of stress-eating at least. 😉

  4. Kelsey says:

    I understand how you feel, it was really hard to go about work and school on Wednesday like nothing had happened, especially when a good portion of people don’t think anything is wrong. I admire you for being open about your feelings and giving readers a heads up. If you want to talk, or like Christine said, need any backup with guest posts. I’d be happy to help. Take care of yourself!

  5. I can empathize. As an American undergoing the Five Stages of grief, I respect your decision to take a break from blogging. This absurdity is impossible to comprehend, and it’s sickening to see how many people were okay with having a bigot in office just to protect their money and weapons. This isn’t the America I grew up to have pride in. I’m scared for my well being as being a Jewish woman battling an eating disorder and using birth control to treat PCOS and endometriosis. But most of all, I fear for the LBGT+ community, I fear for people of color, I fear for Muslims, I fear for all females, I fear for the nation, I fear for the planet, and I fear for the future. The ability to connect with people all over the world thanks to advanced technology has taught me the amazing lesson of how we are all human despite our differences. The similarities showed that we all have similar values and we shouldn’t let anyone take them away from us, regardless of who holds office. Take as much time as you need to process this enigma, Lauren. But please remember that love is stronger than hate and by uniting to overcome walls will solve problems. I love you Lauren!! Stronger Together!!

  6. Claudia says:

    I can’t even imagine what this is like for you, and for the millions of other Americans who feel the same way. I was actually in a newsroom at the time the results came in (I work part-time at a newspaper which covered the US election in insane detail). When people realized that Clinton was going to lose… man, it was nuts. A few people burst into tears, a lot of people were scared, everyone was shocked, and the chocolate stash was raided. And this is in Australia! So I can only imagine it must have been a thousand times worse in the US. I know my American neighbours are absolutely crushed 🙁

    Take all the time you need to process this devastating shock, and give Tipsy plenty of hugs <3

  7. Leander says:

    Feel better, Lauren.

    I don’t live in America myself, but we all followed the election. When the news broke I was convinced it was a horrible, elaborate joke. I think it’s done permanent damage to my faith in mankind.

    Anyway, I’m glad you told us why you’ll be away. As much as I’ll miss your posts, I’d rather not have them, than have them be a chore for you. Nothing worse than trying to force yourself to be creative when you’re really not feeling it.

  8. Ellie says:

    Take care of yourself ♥ I can completely understand you. We’re voting in Germany next year and the far right movement creeps the hell out of me.
    So take all the time you need.

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